haiz... dun even know y i feel angry.. but i juz cant stand it.. was on the way home juz nw... sabby said she was gonna call me at 1015.. but she din, so i called her at 1030 twice but she din pick up.. ltr when she called me back ard 1040 i was kinda in a bad mood cause the train was so noisy cause this stupid group of indian guys keep playing their hp ringing tones at the highest volume in the tunnel and i gt irritated by them.. den during the conversation i was trying to cool my self down cause i din want to loss my top with sabrina bcos i was angry at sumone else... so we tried to tok abt a lot of topics... but the conversation juz could nt get going.. it was like when she started a topic i'll juz end it cause i din really noe wat to say.. den when i got off the train and walked home everything started getting better, until she kept oking abt wat ppl was toking to her abt online and stuff such as wat eugene was toking to her abt.. maybe i'm overreacting, but i cant stand it when she does tat !! its like sumtimes when we're on the phone she'll be online and i'll feel like a wall cause she's prob nt paying attention even if i tok cause tat was wat happen for the past few incidents.. during one conversation tat we had, i was toking to her and she was online and i felt as if i was toking to a wall.. there was also this other time when i called her to tok and thru out the conversation she was watching naruto.... ARGH !!! so when she started toking abt sumthing tat was happening online i juz kept quiet cause i was boiling inside bcos its like if u're online den even if we tok u'll prob juz pay more attention to the stupid computer. haiz.. den when i entered the life she kept saying harlo and i kept harlo back and i sort of gt irritated and shouted at her.... she apologised but i said it wasnt her fault, and its true- it wasnt her fault tat i was angry cause i wasnt angry at her over the harlo thingy, but i was more angry at the idea of her online while toking to me.. so when she ask me y i was so quiet.. i juz said i had nothing to say n so she replied if tats the case den she tok to me tmr when we meet.. tat was the time when i juz lost it.. i said yah and den we din even do the usual bye and i love u thingy.. i was juz so angry... juz called her to ask where to meet tmr.... she's sleeping already....haiz... my temper's getting worse.. i juz cant get it controlled.. i noe if she sees this blog entry she'll prob feel hurt or may get angry but if i dun write it out den she'll nvr noe hw i feel when i'm on the line with her.. haiz.. dun even noe y i'm crying now when i'm supposed to be angry..gtg..
